Travelling OP (sort of) and my first interview!

So like I was saying in my last post, I had to go out of town for an interview at the end of the week. On Thursday, I was staying at my friend Nicole's house in Newmarket since my interview was in Milton on Friday. I did really well making myself a good breakfast before I left and packing lunch for the road, which wasn't hard since I had made ESBM Veggie Lasagna the night before for supper and there were leftovers! I knew I would be dipping into the WP's this week since my dad offered to take me out for dinner Thursday night. We went to the Keg and I got a small portion of prime rib, garlic mashed potatoes, veggies and a house salad with dressing on the side. I thought those were alright choices though I knew the potatoes were probably not the best but I was willing to splurge for good mashed potatoes. My dad ended up wanting to go out for lunch the next day too before I went to the interview so we went to Cora's and I got a chicken melt with a metric ton of fruit.

So that being the food recap, I didn't think that I did that badly. I ended up going on the Keg's website and looking at their nutritional info and apparently for an 8 oz serving of prime rib (which I'm not even sure thats what I had but was the smallest serving they listed) it ended up being 21 points... RAGE!!! My potatoes were 9 points, I was ok with that but 21 points for a little serving of prime rib??? I don't know if I really believe it. And Cora's is not all that healthy either. My chicken melt was pretty high in the points too. But it was yummy. But then when I got home on Friday, there was no dinner for me in the fridge when I had asked my mom to put something aside for me when I got home. I make dinner every night (with the exception of Tuesday since it's my WI day) so this wasn't a huge thing to ask for. My mom's dinner left overs were in the fridge. She fried shrimp in butter and there was so much butter, it had congealed in the fridge and the shrimp was stuck in it. And here comes the confession... I picked the shrimp out of the butter mess and ate some, then proceeding to drink about a cup worth of milk straight from the jug and then having 100 cal pack chocolate covered pretzels. I am a disgusting self-sabotaging cow.

Ok, so before I go on and confess about the rest of my weekend where I was at home, I'll talk about my interview! The interview itself was decent, I don't think I failed it by any means. There were a few things that kind of struck me as odd though such as the manager not being able to tell me what the new grad wage was and then telling me I had to tell her how serious I was about the position because it cost them money to check my references and they weren't going to do that unless I was serious... I realize that hospitals can't be throwing money around without purpose but throughout the whole interview, the manager just made me feel like they had no money and the department just had to make do with that. They also only have like 4 nurses on per shift for the whole department, which might be enough for the small department they are but just really didn't seem like enough to me. I guess I'm used to more people around and a much busier department. I have to contact the manager back by Tuesday to tell her if they should start calling my references, I think I'll tell her to keep me in mind for the positions they'll be opening in September and take my chances elsewhere. It didn't feel like a right fit for me... and maybe I've left my stupid job search too late but I really don't want to work where I'm not comfortable.

Anyway, so back to the stuff I have to fess up to. Saturday, my BF and I got up at 7 am to go to a police auction which was kinda fun but there wasn't anything there that interested me so we went home shortly after arriving. When we got home, I still felt tired so I went to lie down... and ended up sleeping until 3 pm... whoops. I managed to stay within my points that day but today I have no idea whats wrong with me but I went over my DP's by like 11 or something. This would normally be fine but that stupid 21 point prime rib screwed me over. And in the back of my mind, I just keep thinking that "oh it's not really that high in points, it's ok" and it's not ok to think this way!!! ARGH!!!

So currently, after all my WP's and AP's (there aren't many AP's), I am over by 4.5 points this week... I know I can earn the AP's by getting back into my daily walks but it's so frustrating. I feel so defeated and I can't imagine what I'm going to do when I get down to like 25 points a day. I know there are people doing WW on that many points right now and who are succeeding but it seems so overwhelming to me right now. And the worst part is I have to confess this to my lovely Katie tomorrow. I know she's not going to be disappointed but I don't want to tell her that I effed up. If I don't tell her, she'll just read about it here... at least I'm forcing myself to be accountable. It is against my free will but it's getting done I suppose. Ugh, and I didn't get a chance to do a YouTube video of my last WI yet. Hopefully I can do it tomorrow when my momma is gone to work. I'm not quitting, just at a point of frustration!

Oh yeah, and I have not been drinking enough water since Thursday. I expected to slack a bit on Thursday and Friday but I have let it drag out to Sunday. Someone kick my ass!

-Kira