New Goals and A Plan to Get to Goal

Hi.

Remember me?

I'm Kira.

And I stopped blogging a really long time ago.

I'm not a very good or dedicated blogger, but I'm back. I am proud to say that I have not stopped going to Weight Watchers even through all the stuff 2009 threw at me like a new job, a move and starting my adult life, but it's not like I have lost much weight. I currently weigh 242 lbs, which is a difference of 19 lbs since I rejoined Weight Watchers on April 14/09. Don't get me wrong, 19 lbs is great and I'm so happy I haven't cumulatively gained weight over this past year but I know I can do better than that.

So here I am now. Whats different? Well, I have come to realize that I am still unhappy with my weight and my behaviours with food. This year, I will be turning 25. In approxiamately 30 weeks, I will be turning 25. I'm not one of those people who really care about how old they are, or at least I don't believe I am, but whenever I thought about myself at that age in the past, I did not see myself still overweight at age 25. So how do I fix this problem? Well I'm not 100% sure but I think I need a goal. The overall amount of weight I have to lose is very overwhelming to me, I tend to focus on the big picture. I've never been good at establishing short term goals for myself, I've always been a procrastinator. So the idea of still having approximately 100 lbs to lose has always been very daunting and unmotivating to me.

I have this idea. I'm thinking if I can get under 200 lbs for my 25th birthday, that would be the best present I could ever give myself. So I would need to lose about 1.5 lbs per week until my 25th birthday on November the 15th of 2010. Can I do that? Sure I can, but the question is really will I do that?

I have a problem with food. Don't we all. Well I simply do not control myself around food. Like take this week for instance. I was over my weekly points by like 30 points. Thats with a good amount of activity and being "on plan." But I still managed to shed 3.4 lbs at weigh in this week. You'd think that would motivate me right? Negative! Friday, since it was weigh in day, I allowed myself a "cheat day." But I've let it spiral out of control until today. Luckly, I'm done eating for today and have assured myself that I will plan tonight and follow the plan tomorrow. I can do that. When I plan, I am more likely to succeed. My problem is that I am lazy. I simply do not plan because I don't feel like it. It also allows me to cheat for longer, psychologically speaking of course.

So I am going to give this a try. See what I can do with a shorter term goal versus the looming 121 lbs in total I want to lose. I know that if I can get under 200 that I will be happier with myself and can actually see getting to goal and then lifetime. So it doesn't matter what I've done this weekend already, I am forgiving myself and moving on. This plan expects slip ups, I can't beat myself up anymore for them, they are part of the journey and I just have to accept them. It's like family members that horribly embarrass you, they're still part of you're family! I'm going to try to talk about my feelings and what I'm doing with my weight loss journey more often also.

Happy re-birthday to me.

Starting weight (April 14/09): 261 lbs
Current weight (April 16/10): 242 lbs
Weight loss this week: 3.4 lbs
Total weight loss: 19 lbs

-Kira